Thursday, 12 September 2013

Week 15-When I Am Weak, He Is Strong!


Season of Drought

Lately I have been feeling like my relationship with God has become stagnant and has felt dry. So after much thought and preparation I decided to do the Esther Fast and did not eat or drink for 3 days and 3 nights (Esther 4:16). Boy was this a struggle for me but in the end it definitely took my relationship with Him to a new dimension.  If you want to experience new heights with God, I definitely encourage you to fast.

I disconnected myself from the world rarely leaving my room, which gave me more time to focus on the word of God. I also used this time to examine myself and seek Him about the path to take. I needed confirmations regarding decisions to make concerning my future.

Examine Me O God

Over the course of the 3 days I can testify that I experienced God’s love on deeper level. God revealed so much to me regarding the things I need to work on. For example I need to become more obedient and take what He says more seriously. God also brought to light so much regarding my character and stumbling blocks in my life. He answered my prayers and gave me direction regarding my future and also humbled me concerning my relationship with others; He spoke to me about people I needed to go and apologize.

Lord Take Me Higher

By the end of the 3 days I definitely felt as though something had changed! I felt energized and equipped. Ready for battle. I still can’t believe I didn’t eat for 3 days and didn’t collapse either and it was all because of Him! He and He alone sustained me, so He alone deserves all the glory and praise. Jesus truly is the all-sufficient one; He gave me new strength like wow I’m in awe of Him. To think that I kept putting off doing the Esther Fast because of fear of collapsing…the devil truly is a liar! Jesus was spot on when He said man cannot live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God (Matthew 4:4). The Word of God was my food for those 3 days. I can testify that the word of God is living and is true; my heavenly Father guided me continually and satisfied my soul in drought and strengthened my bones (Isaiah 58:11). When we fast, it pushes us to depend on God and His strength rather than our own. Something supernatural happens when we fast.

This experience has taught me the importance of stepping out of my comfort zone and stretching myself. I have discovered that when I feel like I’m not growing, it’s a sign that I have matured and need to go to another level. God is waiting on us, He wants to take us to new levels and do new things in our lives (Isaiah 43:19).

The Purpose of Fasting

In Matthew 6:16, Jesus said, “when you fast” meaning He assumed that His disciples would fast. He Himself fasted for forty days to prepare for ministry and to fortify His soul for His confrontation with Satan (Matthew 4:1-2). He affirmed fasting as an accompaniment to times of intense prayer (Matthew 17:21). Remember the purpose of spiritual fasting is always the same: to draw the believer closer to God (Joel 2:12-15). From the most humble circumstances, one reaches out to God. Let us bear in mind that the Lord is not moved by fasting itself but rather the turning of the hearts of His people towards righteousness (Acts 10:30-33). The Bible repeatedly cautions that true fasting is not merely abstinence from food (Matthew 9:14-15). Fasting must be accompanied by sincere repentance and good works (Isaiah 58:3-7) and must never be done to impress others, as mere ritualism or as a source of pride (Luke 18:10-14), (Daniel 2:23). Also, when fasting it is not only food that we can refrain from, it could be our mobile phone, social media, music etc. So pray and ask God what He wants you to abstain from (I’ll make another post which speaks about tips on fasting).

Will You Stand In The Gap?

At church on Sunday, my pastor was speaking on the cost of discipleship. Luke 9:51-62 speaks in detail about this and I definitely recommend you read this passage when you have time. Being a disciple of Christ means we must count the costs. It will cost us our time, prayer life, wealth and resources. There is always a sacrifice that needs to be made in order for the Gospel to move forward but with sacrifice comes blessings. In Galatians 6:9, Paul encourages us to not grow weary in doing good, for in due season we shall reap a harvest if we do not lose heart. Let us store up our riches in heaven rather on earth. Remember everything we see shall soon pass away, but it’s that which we can’t see that will last forever.  God is looking for someone to stand in the gap and intercede on behalf of the nations. He is looking for people to do the work of an evangelist and bring the lost into His kingdom. Proverbs 11:30 states that “he who wins souls is wise”. Today, let us step out of our comfort zone and share the Gospel with someone. Who has God put on your heart for you to minister to?

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Week 14-God, Help Me Focus On The Bigger Picture


Blessed Sunday With The Church Family

On Sunday, one of the women from church invited me to have lunch with her and her family. I love how welcoming and generous the people of Fiji are! I had such a lovely evening with her and her family. Whilst there, God kept prompting me speak to her daughter who was blind about discovering her spiritual gifts. Through being there I see how He used me to encourage and minister to her.


                                            Feeling Frustrated & Annoyed


This week I feel like my patience has been tested on another level. I have been having issues with some of the people around me. I was so frustrated and annoyed that I decided to go for a walk. Whilst walking, I looked up and saw the sky looked. It looked so beautiful (picture on right). As we can see from the picture there are small grey clouds and the rest of the sky is filled with white clouds. Despite the small grey clouds, the sky still looks beautiful right? God spoke to me through His creation and told me that I should focus on the bigger picture. He encouraged me to not get distracted focusing on the little things but instead focus my time and energy on my calling and purpose. This is how God wants us to live; He wants focus first on His kingdom (Matthew 6:33) and be concerned about fulfilling our purpose. Paul was someone who understood this. It was as if he had tunnel vision because He didn’t see the need to be concerned with things that didn’t really matter. Instead he pressed “towards the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus”(Philippians 3:14).

Fellowship With The Teens

On Friday, I went to a village close to the city of Suva called Namatakula. We had a fundraising in preparation for outreach. On that night we arrived, the rest of the team went to fellowship, but because it was in Fijian I decided to stay at home. Whilst being at home, I was introduced to a few teenagers that lived nearby. I ended up sharing the Gospel with them and teaching them more about God’s Word and we had such a lovely evening lol. I felt like a Sunday school teacher that night and thank God for ministering through me.


What else has been happening to me this week? Well as you know from previous posts that I have been seeking God about the next step and this week He revealed to me a glimpse of what the future holds for me. I see now that He wants to use my Psychology degree to bring understanding and work with people with mental health issues in Fiji. I’m super excited for what God has in store for me!

Rebellion=Willful Disobedience…OUCH!

I have also been learning a lot about myself…well God has been exposing things lol! I was brought up in an individualistic society and am so used to being independent and doing my own thing. I now realize that although this is a good thing in some respects it can also be a hindrance in the Kingdom of God. The Bible speaks about how in the Body Of Christ there is to be “no division in the body” (1 Corinthians 12:12). Though we are many, we are one body in union with Christ, and are all joined to each other as different parts of one body (Romans 12:5).

Me being so independent at times has resulted in me finding it hard to submit to leadership. I can be so rebellious and stubborn at times and I recognize now that rebellion=willful disobedience …YIKES! As we all know a rebellious spirit does not please God. Ultimately, all rebellion is against God! This is regardless of whether it’s against leaders, parents or the law. After all God established those patterns of authority (Romans 13:2). I had to repent and change my mindset.  I came across a quote that said, “those who do their own thing will never lead any body, but those who know how to follow will be good leaders”. I can’t be a good leader if I’m not a good follower and disciple!

How are you when it comes to submitting to authority? Are you struggling or have you mastered submission? If you are struggling in this area, I want to encourage you to repent and ask the Holy Spirit to help you. His grace is sufficient and made perfect in weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). In Isaiah 1:19 it says that if we are willing and obedient, we shall eat the good of the land scripture.  Don’t you want to eat the good of the land?

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Miss Josie Jo
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Sunday, 8 September 2013

Week 13-Everything Has Changed!


This week I have been so emotional. On Monday I got a phone call from the airport asking me to come and pick up a parcel my family sent from England. I was so excited to eat strawberry bonbons from Marks and Spencer’s haha but little did I know that this parcel would humble me and make me sob like a baby! I opened the parcel to see so much snacks and treats not to mention gifts and birthday cards and video clips. I did not anticipate just how much this parcel would make realise how much I miss my friends and family back home.

I was in tears and didn’t want to talk to anyone. I just wanted to be by myself so when I got home, I spend some time alone with God. I asked God what was next for me. I wanted to know if it was His will for me to stay in Fiji for more than 6 months? I was so puzzled. I didn’t know what was next for me. Truthfully, if I was to come back to London in September I don’t even know what I would be doing. A couple of weeks ago I spoke with my mum over Face Time and I asked her to show me around the house. It’s weird because the house no longer felt like my home.

He’s Calling Me Deeper

On Wednesday morning I was listening to a song called ‘Deeper’ by Marvin Sapp. This song really ministered to me and was a confirmation from God that He has called me to Fiji for more than just 6 months. God speaks people, He speaks. If we ask, He will answer and reveal to us great and mighty things that we do not know (Jeremiah 33:3). There’s a part in the song which says ‘the place that I’m in can no longer contain my destiny, and though it may have some pain I adhere to the call inside of me’-London is that place. God is calling me deeper. He wants to take me to a brand new level and going to another level=sacrifice. If we want to enter new dimensions and levels we must give up something. God is calling us all to go deeper!


God,I Need A Moment!

After I got the confirmation from God my initial reaction was “God, this was never MY plan”! I kept saying to my friends, “I’ll be back in 6 months” but little did I know that God had different plans for me. I made a mistake. I failed to take into account Proverbs 16:9 which says “a man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps”. I failed to realise that my life is not my own and as a result I was finding it hard to submit to His will. I was like a baby kicking and screaming and as much as I confessed with my mouth “God, Your will be done” I just wasn’t ready to surrender my life completely to Him.

One of the amazing qualities about God is that He is so gentle. When I looked back at how far I had come since being in Fiji and everything that has happened, I see that God was preparing me all along for that moment. He was preparing my heart and knew the right time to confirm it to me. He led to notes in my Bible, which said “complete trust in God demands that we relinquish all rights to direct the course of our own life. By surrendering to God’s will, we affirm that our Father knows best. Personal aspirations become secondary to God’s divine plan”….OUCH! Who ever said this Christian walk ain’t easy was not lying!!!

I felt like I was in the middle of the ocean. Stuck. I couldn’t even tell you if I was floating or not lol. I had a choice to make, God’s way or my way? God has given us free will. We can’t go His way unless we are willing to give up our own plans. Now I’m learning more and more to say “Father, here are my plans, if it’s Your will, bring it to pass in Your timing. And believe me when I say this hasn’t been easy but God is so gracious, I thank Him for His tender mercies. John says in 1 John 5:14 “now this the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will He hears us. And if we know that He hears us whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him. The key words here are “according to His will”.

We Were Created For His Glory

God created us with a purpose and He has His own plans for us. The word purpose means: the reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists. We didn’t choose our purpose God did. “It is only in God that we discover our origin, our identity, our meaning, our purpose, our significant, and our destiny. Every other path leads to a dead end”-Rick Warren. We were born by God’s purpose and for His purpose. It’s not about us, it’s about HIM! Revelation 4:11 declares that God created everything, and it is for His pleasure that they exist and were created. If you haven’t read Rick Warren’s book The Purpose Driven Life, I strongly recommend you do, this will definitely put life into prospective. In Isaiah 43:7 it says “Everyone who is called by My name, whom I have created for My glory; I have formed him, yes I have made Him". We were created for His glory and pleasure.

I was looking back at my old journal and saw that in January 2012 I was contemplating whether or not to come to Fiji after I finished university. God is so faithful, a year and 6 months later, here I am in Fiji. God had a plan for me from before I was born and has been ordering my steps all along. He has been orchestrating my life and He is orchestrating YOUR life too. We were in His care even before we were born (Isaiah 44:2). Will you surrender your life to God so that you can discover and fulfill your destiny and purpose?

Thank you all for taking the time to read my blog and know that I have been praying for each and everyone of you.

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Miss Josie Jo
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